Back  My Private Hell  -  Private Hell II  -  Loneliness  -  Loneliness II  - Black Darkness  -  Resurrection  -  Forsaken  -  Battle I - Battle II  -  The Edge  - Mind  -  Windows  -  Path  -  Only One  -  New World  -  Crushed  -  Losing Faith   My Private Hell welcome to my private hell i am surrounded by my anger and confusion i am beckoned toward unhappiness nobody understands this confusion i feel in my private hell i can't leave you can't run from your own mind i need to be free of my mind free from my private hell everyday i wake and hope for a new day yet, my demons of confusion and pain drag me down i can no longer contain all this suffering i am filled with unhappiness i beg to be released freed from my suffering Ii can not be happy i thought about the end but that would not allow me an escape i just need this to end and be released before its to late   Private Hell II i sit alone in the darkness except for my demons they torment me with my feelings stripped of all happiness and hope all i do now is pray, pray for a savior to deliver me from this hell i have lived in for so long now a ray of light pierces the darkness scattering my demons and i see you you reach down to pull me up as hope fills my body i have longed for this moment for so long now i thought it was out of reach far to gone to be gained back but now i might have a chance   Lonliness my lonliness consumes me everyday dragging me further into hell i struggle to get out yet my demons keep me down i feel myself slowly going insane wanting the end but not enough to receive it i stay here, my demons keep me caged i scream to be released to be set free   Loneliness II Alone I sit My own voice echoes in my head Darkness behind me My demons wait Like lions hunting prey they stalk me Waiting until I am at my lowest Then they rush me Flooding me with sadness and pain They take control Their mere presence stains my soul They let me see only pain I fall to my knees And scream to the heavens above Torn from grace I am a fallen child I am Faildhope   Black darkness I sit in the darkness A single ray of light is all that lights my cell I feel the demons creeping up on me They hide in the shadows Waiting for nightfall Then they come, entering my soul Tormenting and torturing my mind I believe them and all there lies I begin to resist what I want And want what they want I try and try for love But never can find it I have given up on almost everything I no longer care about what I have Or what I am I am now just a slave A slave of the demons Forced to do what they say They cover my eyes with darkness To blind me from seeing my actions Then hold them open to see the painful results They take away all I have loved And bring all I hate As they force me to embrace it Every time I am happy they bring pain I do not know what to do How to escape these demons They lurk behind me even now The key to my freedom lies within a choice A choice that must be made The battle I must choose to fight The voice I must choose to silence I must decide Darkness has overwhelmed my soul Confusion has my heart My mind is all that is left I must win the war Or be lost forever And the black darkness inside of me will consume me Yet I can not win alone I need some one to stand beside me Someone to which I can turn For only then will I win my war   Resurection The darkness blinds my eyes As I stumble onward in my life Hell awaits me As my demons lurk at every turn This is my life The cries of my suffering Echo in the emptiness Tears flood the darkness Streaming out in rivers of pain They flow Death is but a sweet promise Yet to easy to have Life is what I want Yet death is what I live My demons drain me off all hope And refill me with pain Then she appears to slay the demons And heal my stained and tortured soul Her kiss fills me with happiness Her touch soothes my troubled soul And her heart completes mine As she resurrects me   Forsaken my angel has forsaken me and i am all alone my demons come back to me invading my mind, heart, and soul they destroy my hopes and dreams my love has died and so have i Why, i scream to god at the same time wondering if he exists and why am i being punished has he forsaken me am i cursed to my private hell for eternity if so i am doomed and hell is my life i pray to my angel yet she can not hear me and i am forsaken   Battle I The darkness closes around me My demons creeping up behind me Emerging from the twilight skies of my mind Stalking me they surround me Their eyes glowing like rubies in the night I prepare for battle against them They come screaming wide-eyed and lustful Ripping and clawing at my soul Tearing apart my heart Armed with my hope And blessed by my love I fight them   Battle II I am filled with hope For a new dawn And a demon less night I defeated my demons in the first of many battles with the help of my angel my one and only true love she fills me with hope and the demons lose hold their pain flows from my body empty of pain and full of love I am released Yet still I must fight The war is never over But armed with my sword of hope And protected by love I will triumph   The Edge I stand at the edge looking down at my end then I look around at my hell finally up at my heaven I am lost here stranded in a sea of hate and unhappiness all this pain I feel has drained every emotion from my soul leaving it dead and decaying I hang my foot over fall and it would be over all this suffering and self hatred would end but that is far to easy and it would cause far to many to suffer but is that all I have left   Mind i am good i am the one who brings you happiness i also am evil i am the one who brings you pain i am your god i am your devil i keep you locked up inside me, you beg to be released i torture you with right and wrong as you long for peace you will not fight me because i am your ruler your master i control your every though if you have hopes and dreams i am you i am your mind   Windows i peer through my window from my cage of darkness envisioning a world unlike any other i have ever known a world of happiness and hope my hopes were long ago crushed by myself i pleed for freedom screaming to be released from this darkness a ray of light breaks through shinning down in a bright unbroken beam   Path darkness is all around me a single ray of light guides me on my path it began as a path of goodness a path of light now my demons are my guide my light has been extinguished I now walk a new path a path of loneliness and pain I only wish for a way out   Only One i awake in a cold sweat with chills running down my spine i was the only one left in the world all that remained was the true nature of man somehow transformed they stripped me of my soul   New world I awaken to find myself in a place different from anything I have known people seem to be made of a pure white light there are also those made of darkness a darkness so dark it seems to consume you these are my emotions the light is my hope, love, happiness, and dreams the darkness is my hate, sadness, pain, and suffering I try to escape this yet I am trapped here for all eternity   Crushed my hopes and dreams have been crushed for so long now and i can't dream anymore death looks over my shoulder i hate this pain i feel it has become my god my life and i have no reason to go on   Losing Faith i am surrounded by my demons in the darkness they wait uncaring creatures with out hearts they grow stronger as i grow weaker i am losing faith in myself my demons locked up for so long now have taken control