Poem List Gave it all - The inside  - Cross of pain  - Nervous  - untitled  -  Wait - Lies  - Today - Disappear - Waiting - I am - Razor  -  Tired Over you  -  Darkness  -  Memory  Gave it all i gave you all all that i have all that i am you gave me nothing you left me hollow and alone oblivious to how i feel or uncaring i have showed you the core of my soul and you have shown me a blind eye not seeing what i am or how i feel  The inside i am cold and empty pull me out from this hell i am ready to be released yet i am stuck stuttering and tongue tied to scared to tell you just how i feel when it is you who can release me yet i can let no one in i have crammed and stuffed and stomped myself down pull me out from the inside  Cross of pain all i feel is the pain it is the only thing that seems real everything i know falls apart it all turns to ash it all burns away and alone in this wasteland alone in this empire of ashen hopes i will remain this cross of pain that i carry is wearing me down this burden i can no longer carry the weight i can no longer up hold yet on and on i struggle  Nervous i don't know whats wrong i don't know how to explain this my mind doesn't work my body refuses to cooperate and this is all because of you you make me so nervous you make me so happy i don't want to disappoint you i don't want this to turn bad i can't stand the thought of not touching you when you are here yet my arms go limp my mouth goes dry nervousness fills me and i can't think i can't breathe  . lying here at night i see you, in my dreams i feel you, in my arms i hold you, in my heart and there you will remain wherever you are right here you will remain never will i let go from the first time you touched me i wanted you from the first time i held you i loved you  Wait i lie here in the dark waiting for you to return from your trip through your soul for so long i was alone cold and waiting then you came, you warmed my heart and charmed my soul now you are gone off to discover your self i lie and tell you i will be fine yet i am dying inside with out you here stumbling through this life without you to take my hand and pick me up when i fall lying here i will wait  Lies you told me you loved me and forever here you would be but you dissapered left me all alone heartbroken and empty a hollow ghost i am haunting what once was a happy home now is just hollow demons creep and crawl with no angel to bring the morning light your words echo through my heart yet they were all lies and now i am alone  Today Today i woke and you were gone i have spent all week wondering what i did wrong where i lost you now that you are gone i am afraid all alone in the dark  Disappear so long now i have wanted to be loved then you came and i thought you loved me yet you disappear leaving me alone wondering and waiting trusting and hoping you will come back like you said and you do yet again you disappear leaving me alone I'm afraid to be alone  Waiting i waited for you for so long so long that i can no longer wait alone and empty i have kept myself it has eaten away all that i am all that i will ever be and all that i was a hollow shell is what i now am an empty ghost haunting my life lost in the darkness i am and forever shall be waiting  I am i give love yet receive none in return i am the unloved i am the unchosen i am never good enough yet perfect at the same time i am the one you will want just not right now i am the one when no one better can be found i am me  Razor sliding slowly and deeply across the skin the blade cuts dripping quickly and silently the pool forms dizziness fills my head emptiness fills my body rising up i see myself empty and hard like the shell of a locust split open for me to escape yet in hell i am still trapped (no i am not, nor do i want to kill myself.  So quit worrying)  Tired i am so tired of being alone so tired of being told lies so tired of these games with my heart i am human and my heart cries out in pain yet you do not hear it or do not care which i do not know i am tired of wondering i am tired of it all  Over you  this is my life this is my empty heart and i just wish this would all end just wish i could be happy i would give everything just to have you to come home to and you to hold i am tired of pretending that i am happy that i do not want more that i would chose this over you  Darkness Don't turn away and ignore the words you have spoken Leaving me to let the darkness come again I need your strength to get me through Without you i am nothing I let the darkness cover me On my own I lie here in the darkness Day after day i slip Down further and further Letting the darkness cover me  Memory Your memory fills my mind haunting my dreams your voice echoes in my head as your touch still burns in I lie here clutching my pillow needing it to be you i am left with nothing more than a lie and a memory